Its 6.15 am....... and i am dreaming .

 

The slow and gentle hum of  the bus engine was rocking me back to sleep. I closed my eyes and felt the cool morning breeze ripple across my face.

"Ticket?"

 

TRACK CHANGE

 

I suddenly open my eyes to see the bus conductor stand before me , clicking the stapler like thing in his hand.I hand over a Rs.10 note.

"Uncle, Do ticket-borivili station"

He hands me and my friend our tickets.I absent-mindedly start rolling uo the bus ticket like a ciggarette. I close my eyes again.The aroma of  "bhindi" and "pulao" and "thepla" waft in the air. A smile grew in the corner of my lips when i realized that the mothers were  all up early packing luch for their children.

Suddenly my friend(or rather travel companion) starts loudly complaining about the grease which she accidently got on her arm.I acted ignorant. I was to "lost" to judge whether i was being rude or not.

At that moment  all i could think about was my soft pillow , the breeze  and the smell of  "bheegi meeti".It had rained just a few minutes back.I was on a high.

 

" i took a heavenly ride through our silence ,

For killing the past and coming back to life"

 

One of my all time favourite songs by pink floyd starts playing in my head.I smiled again.

I was alone in the world now. It was just me and the breeze and the aroma of mother earth's embrace.

 

TRACK CHANGE

 

"So kiss me and smile for me

oh babe.. i hate to go"

 

My dad tells me that he had sung this song for me when he was going broad for the first time and i was just little girl. I really do love him with all my life. Unconditional love people call it.

 

TRACK CHANGE

 

"Raindrops on roses and whiskers on kittens.

these are a few of my favourite things"

 

OH! "The sound of music" is the BEST film ever! I should watch it again some time.The songs are simply lovely.My mom tells me that when i was just a few months old, nothing except playing the movie could make me have lunch.

 

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"Are you lonesome tonight?

Are you sorry we drifted apart?"

 

oh god! Elvis presley's voice just melts my heart. Every time i hear this song , i visualize a  cloudy afternoon in paris , and me sitting outside a cafe near the eiffel tower, spping on my coffee. and just blending in with the song.

 

TRACK CHANGE

 

"i can read your mind and i know your story.

But i know it will come to you again."

 i had read dheera's sometime back.Couldnt comment as i was not signed in.She adores thi song.I love it too. Love the rhythm and i ADORE the video. i would watch this song over and over again on TV. i think it had aired in India for the first time when i was in 4th standard.GOD.... how i love the fact that there was no pressure on me those days.I wonder how dheera and namrata are doing these days...

 

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"C'mon.So we start with the fifth session of Kinematics today. Before we start, just one question. If acceleration is constant, then......"

 

lecture has commenced. Sir is in the classroom .

 

I stop my train of thoughts.It comes to a complete halt.

I find bliss in this sudden blankness of my mind these days.Its oddly comforting.For people around me, i might be dull and bland comapred to the kind of person i used to be untill  a few months back.But quite frankly, i have stopped caring now.Let them think whatever they want to.

But RIGHT NOW,

 all i see is a few idiotic guys sniggering.

ALL i can hear is the girl behind me chattering about how she is chucking her IIT preparation.

ALL i can feel is the touch of my pen on my cheek.

All i can taste is colgate toothpaste in my mouth.

 

*sigh*

 

TRACK CHANGE

 

This is where reality begins.

Its 7.00am.

 

 

We humans are selfish. No point denying it.

 

Some of us might describe ourselves as "kind and giving and selfless" on those networking sites , but we know that not true.

 

We are selish

 

and

 

we take a lot of pride. In the smallest things.

 

Might be a special talent,

or a their own creation.

 

Things like these.They are  justified.

 

But do you know what is not justified?

 

Taking pride because we humans have intellect. All of the biology lectures , teacher asks the basic difference between a human and an animal. Everyone knows the answer. we are more special. we have intellect. we can communicate. And people seem to believe it with all their might.They shouldnt.

 

End of they day, we too are animals.RAW animals.not SOPHISTICATED INTELLECTUAL ones.

 

I saw a documentry last night.It was about how a an uruguan plane carrying their national rugby team Crashed in the Snow-peaked Andies. When a rescue team were sent, they couldnt find the plane nor its remains nor any people. So they declared them dead to the world. What was worse, that they werent. They were very much alive.Survival of over 25 people in such extreme conditions wasnt exactly the easiest thing in the world. Day after Day people kept dying because of lack of food. And they had finally given up hope of any other rescue team to arrive since they had been declared dead. Those 10-13 of them remaining had reached such a state of mind , that they were ready to do anything to survive. Finally after some days , these group of people decided to send their 3 strongest team-mates in serach of help. After there trek for a week, they reached a farm house in Chile.And FINALLY , 45 days after the plane had crashed , the other few on the mountain top were rescued. There had their fame. But everyone wanted to know ONE THING , after everything by them was said and done, that HOW DID THEY SURVIVE FOR 45 DAYS IN SUCH EXTREME CONDITIONS. theirfinal answer? well, they provided insulation to their bodies with everything they cud find on the plane. and they ate their friends. They ate the dead person's meat.Human flesh.Thats how they survived. They survived oon their dead collegue's dead bodies.Intellectual ans sophsiticated animals? or just raw bardbaric animals?

 

Sometimes, we humans get shifted into such an alien state of mind, that we start behaving more like animals. When we are in our normal state, we wouldnt even think of such acts. NOW that you and me are in such normal states, would we ever think of eating OUR FRIENDS.EATING.not killing, not burning , BUT EATING THEM.?? Bt i am pretty sure that if u and I were in such position, we would have eaten them.We are anmals after all. That is were we came from.

 

We read the papers filled with articles like "She stabbed her son 45 times aftr  killing him"  or "he chopped his wife to pieces after she asked him for a divorce" ....

Do you think, however insane or whacked a person might be, that he/she would STAB their own  child? BURN their OWN mother alive? CHOP their spouse? Sophisticated intellectual animals? or raw barberic ones?

 

Its about time we stop thinking about what clothes to wear, how many friendship bands to buy , which movie to watch all the time. And stop and think for once, how we think. Why we think the way we do? Why we react to situations the way we do? Why we have opinion about evrything under the sun? Why we lie? Why we say the truth?

 

Our world and Our minds have great deep dark secrets which we yet have to unfold.

 

Want to give it a shot?

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

P.S -- I am thinking right? or did i make NO sense??